Some where beyond the heart

Aur kuch dair main jab phir mairay tanha dil ko
Fiq'r aa le gi ke tanhai ka kia chara karay
Dard aaey ga dabay pao'n liey surkh chiraagh
Woh jo ik dard dharakta hai kahin, dil se paray

Dil se phir ho gi mairi baat, k aey dil aey dil
Ye jo mehboob bana hai tairi tanhai ka
Ye to' mehmaa'n hai gharri bhar ka chala jaey
Mushta'al ho ke abhi uthein ge wehshi saa'ey
Ye chala jaey ga, reh jaein ge baqi saey....


And in a little while, when my lonely heart will, once more,
Be distraught with worry, to find a solution to its loneliness
Pain will steel through me, glowing lantern held aloft:
The pain that beats somewhere beyond the heart;

And to my heart I'll say: O' heart,
This alleviator of your loneliness, your companion in solitude
Is, but the guest of a few moments, he will leave.
And clouds of gloom, banked down, will ignite again;
It is shadows that will remain; he will be gone...


So there it is. Love and betrayal. Reality barging in, to drag us out, kicking and screaming, of our love induced stupors.

Until it's just "me" again. And a memory of "us".

I don't believe in "happily ever after"s. Not for Romantic love, or any other kind. It's a wave, not a tide. It doesn't last a life time, or even half a one. It's a crazy little see-saw, where all the "downs" hurt like hell.

And yet, if you look back, when the pain has dulled a little, and if you really really try, it will let you look beyond the heart break. That's where the beautiful memories live.

So we march on to the beat of our hearts, knowing how it will be, ignoring all the warnings of our calculating brains. We march on, because it's the memories that make life worth living any way.

[It's Faiz again. I can't imagine how one person could express every one of the emotions we experience in our lives, with such soft poignancy. I wish he was still alive and I could meet him.]