Once.

There was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me, do you?
But remember when I moved in you
And the holly dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was hallelujah

Maybe there's a god above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot someone who outdrew you
It's not a cry you can hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

Hallelujah...

Jumping "out of" love.

Do people fall out of love?

Apparently, yes.

Without any fights or arguments to sour relationships, with no mistrust or misunderstanding to severe ties. Not even an "other woman" to entice you away.

You "fell out of" love.

*cue for applause* [this is an angry post]

I begged you to tell me where I went wrong. I promised to adhere to all your wishes. I apologized for what ever my mistakes were.

I begged you to stay.

I reminded you of all your promises. I reminded you of all that you pledged. I bade you to think of me just a little.

I begged you to stay.

But you'd fallen out of love. "It's not your fault. It's my heart."

Quietly, without so much as a whisper, a splash, your heart fell out of love.

You could've told me. We could've jumped out together. I wouldn't have drowned in there alone.

Jinhein jurm-e ishq pe naaz tha, woh gunahgaar chalay gaey.

My favorite "Milli Naghma"

Aey watan hum hain teri sham'ma ke parvano'n main
Zindagi hosh main hai josh hai imano'n main!

Dil le ushaak ki maanind ye taptay maidan
Ye lachaktay huey jungle yee phiraktay armaan!
Ye paharo'n ki ghataon main jawani ki uthaan,
Ye machaltay huey daryaon main angrai ki shaan!
Kitnay roshan hain diey teray shabistaano'n main!

Teray mazdoor ki ankhon k shararay le ker,
Teray dehkan k mathay k sitaray le ker
Chandni boe'ein ge jhulsay huey maidaan'on main!

Hum tujhe aag ka daria nahin ban'nay dein ge
Tujhe nafrat ka tamasha nahin ban'nay dein ge!
Tujhe ko paa lein ge...
Tujh ko paa lein ge Mohabbat k gulistaano'n main!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6t7zHEB2Tc8&feature=related

Mourning Spring

Lo suuni gayi hamari, yun phirey hain din ki phir sey
Wohi goshaa-e-kafas hai, wahi fasl-e-gul kaa maatam


Yeh ajab kayamaten hain, teri rehguzar mey guzraan
Na hua ke mar mitey hum, na hua ke jii utthey hum

Remembering Spring 2007.

Hona hi tha jo hua hai...

"Kal Ho Na Ho" sad version ALWAYS makes me cry.

Perhaps it always will.

Whattay loser, haina na? =D

Choices

There's always a choice.

Every morning, when we get out of bed to start a new day, we're making a choice.

Every breath we take, every minute that we do not throw ourselves down a flight of stairs, it's a conscious decision to live.

I abhor people who go through life blaming life for every road they take. The times when we feel we do not have a choice, is when the choices are the most difficult. But they are still there. We're never helpless, because God gave us free will.

The qismet and naseeb we talk about, our fate, that's what governs the quality of choices we're faced with, the alternative roads we can decide to go down.

But the will, the decision, is always our own.

I have a friend who is faced with difficult choices. One road leads to what her heart desires. The other to what her mind dictates.

The road towards her hearts desire is rocky, strewn with hardships. Her life will be difficult. She will have to change completely, forget who she used to be. No one around her will support this decision. And after all that, in the end, the destination might not turn out to be what she expected. Because the only thing we can ever be sure of is that people change.

The road that practicality would support, is an easy life. It seems that everything she ever wanted, she would get down that road. Material things, as well as the love and support of all her loved ones.

So this is what I have to say, A:

It's your decision, it will always be your choice. If you decide to choose the second, and even if you do it to please your family, don't blame any one else for it later on. Decide that you will not spend your life with "what if"s. Understand that you need to fear nothing, because this will not be the end of the world, or the end of hapiness. There's a life time to live, still, and hundreds of choices to make, and millions of ways to reach self actualization.

Whichever road you choose, give it your hundred percent.

Because you deserve that. And because life deserves as much.

I will not text you again

"I wonder if you'll ever come back to me. I feel like a loser even texting you this. But oh well, right? =]"




"It's been three months. Move on?"




Na gai, tairi bayrukhi na gai
Hum teri aarzoo bhi kho baithay.